A letter to say thank you!
Dear James, Fiona and the whole Shrink team,
I am writing to sincerely thank you from the bottom of my heart, for changing my life more than I could have ever imagined.
Having been overweight for almost the entirety of my life, especially my adult life, it was last year (my 30th year) that I decided something needed to change. I hated the way I looked, I hated the way I felt and I was incredibly unhappy in the skin I was in. I hated walking into a room full of other people as I was sure they were all staring at me either pitying me and the way I looked or were disgusted by my appearance. I had constant fear and anxiety for meeting new people as I dreaded what they must think of me. The thing I hated the most however, was never really feeling like I could be my true self.
I’m not going to lie, attending a Shrink seminar was not my idea and quite frankly, I didn’t think it would work. I had heard a little bit about the program through colleagues who knew people who had been to the seminar and were seeing great results and I have an uncle who has also seen amazing results through your program, however I still wasn’t convinced. I didn’t know much about it and truly thought and actually verbalized “of course they lose weight, they don’t eat anything! As soon as they start eating again, they’ll put it all back on”. This was my ignorance talking, however, in my mind, it was a very powerful voice. One that didn’t even allow me to give Shrink a second thought.
It wasn’t until I was certain that last year was the year, the year I would make the change, that things really did, change forever.
I had settled on the fact that I was going to have a gastric sleeve. Now, I’m a nurse and I see ever so frequently the consequences and at times, debilitating impacts that gastric sleeves can have on individuals, yet I was still certain I was going to go down that path because I was sick of this version of me.
Unfortunately, my private health insurance didn’t cover this procedure and I also didn’t have a lazy $25,000 laying around to fund it, so I was going to access my superannuation to get it done. I had made the phone calls; I had printed the paperwork and I made the GP appointment to get my referral. Everything was aligned for this to happen.
HOWEVER… the next day I went into my boss’s office and sat down and informed her that I would be, in the near future, taking some extended sick leave to have a procedure. What came out of her mouth next completely shocked us both. Her question… “That’s totally fine but what procedure are you having done?” I wasn’t expecting her to ask any questions and she was equally as mortified that that question had slipped out of her mouth and instantly retracted it, telling me I absolutely did not have to answer that question and that she was sorry she had asked if. Now, I love my boss, respect her dearly and value her beyond measure, but I even surprised myself when I heard me telling her I was going to get a sleeve. I had made the decision not to tell anyone as I didn’t want anyone to try and talk me out of it, and here I was telling her. I AM FOREVER GRATEFUL I DID!!!!
Straight away she told me not to, that I didn’t need to do that and that I wasn’t big enough (me: I absolutely was!) and why wasn’t I trying that thing, that “hypnotherapist thing” that others in the hospital were doing. Answering back was the naive me again… “it won’t work for me; I’m not doing that.” I left her office with her support of what I was planning on doing but also with the promise that I would look into that “hypnotherapy thing”. That night, at the beginning of June last year, I went home and googled your program.
Suddenly, my mind shifted. I thought, why not just try it and if it doesn’t work at least I know I’ve tried everything and I’ll go ahead with the gastric sleeve. Plus, financially, it was a far better option and as luck had it, there was a seminar in Wodonga a few weeks later. There and then, I signed up. I booked in to the June 29-30 seminar.
As a result from that weekend, my life truly changed for that better. I was blown away by the information I received, not only about the food side of things, but more importantly, the power of your mind. Suddenly it all made sense… the certain triggers and events in my life that had seen me put on significant amounts of weight at a time, all leading me to where I was then. I was so inspired by what could be that I had to start immediately. I started the program the next day, July 1st, 2019 weighing in at a very embarrassing 106.5kg.
Cut to almost 12 months later and this morning, at the end of the program, I weighed in at 66.4kg. A loss of 40.1kg, a result I never thought imaginable, let alone possible. I’m not going to lie, it’s been tough. There’s things I had to miss out on in order to stay on track, there was times I was tempted and times even gave in to that temptation, but I got there. For the first time in my adult life, I am now classified as being in a ‘healthy weight range’, and I couldn’t be happier about it.
It’s been a process and one that probably isn’t recommended, but it worked for me. I finished up my first round on November 30th, 2019 weighing 76.5kg, stopping because I had too much socially coming up and because, Christmas. I didn’t want to miss out on Christmas. I know, I know, not the right attitude but it was something I had to do.
Fast forward to February and after some terrible eating choices over the festive season and a 10 day girls’ trip to Bali, I was now 5kg heavier and felt TERRIBLE about myself.
I had always wanted to come back and lose a little bit more and this was the driving force. So on February 24th, I started again. And here I am today, weighing an unimaginable (for myself) 66.4kg.
I now walk into a room full of people without giving it a second thought. I no longer hide what’s in my supermarket trolley out of fear that people are judging me and what’s in my trolley. And whilst I still have a few obstacles to tackle mentally and whilst I’m still not 100% confident in my own skin, I am a far happier version of me than I have been my entire adult life. I have physically never felt better.
So thank you! Thank you for all you have taught me and most importantly, for what you enabled me to achieve.
For yourselves and for my boss for pushing me towards your program, I am eternally thankful.
Oh and I now tell anyone who will listen that if they’ve struggled with their weight forever like I have or if they’re ready to make a change, they MUST look into this program. It’s a game changer.
Again, I thank you,
Nicki White.
